Rebel without a Pause
He is the most
misunderstood man in the Telugu film industry. But there is no denying
Kalyan's star power. The actor commands a formidable following here
and overseas, if trade and box-office results are to be believed.
Hated and loved by
those who care to react, Kalyan has gossip rags work overtime fishing
out juicy tit-bits from his personal life . He is no more called
Chiranjeevi's kid brother, he is on his own and producers swear that
he is one of the Telugu cinema's hottest selling stars. He claims he
is a very normal person and cannot understand why he has become
media's favorite whipping boy. At his huge fortress like home, a
relaxed Pawan Kalyan allows us a peep into his personal life.
The real person: Everyone says
I'm different. Maybe yes, but I'm not bad. I haven't harmed
anyone. I have this strong streak of individuality. I have a mind
and I speak my heart out. The word diplomacy doesn't exist in my
dictionary. Diplomacy kills a person. I am a socially conscious
person and my films vouch for that. I'm very clear about myself
and you will never find any shades of grey in my thoughts or
actions. But I don't know why people misunderstand me. If I were
to die now, I'd go with a sense of fulfillment and without
On media: They have every
reason to misinterpret me. They write a lot about me. What have I
done? I was completely down after Johnny. What I thought of
Johnny and what got translated on screen was very
different. I compensated the distributors' loss. I have always
shared the loss and no one talks about it. I'm yet to repay the
loan for this house. Nevertheless,
I'm a very content person and I never felt I should use media to
justify my actions. I'm not guilty.
On his films: When I take up a
project, I make sure that I do full justice to it. If a particular
thing is necessary for a film I will go to any extent to get that
done. For example, in Tholi Prema the director wanted the set
of Taj Mahal to be erected. But the producer said he didn't have the
budget. The director said it would make a difference and I said I was
ready to part with my share of money. As an actor I seek quality and
I know my limitations
as an actor. I will sign a film only when I know I can deliver the
goods. I work hard and live only for the present. Strangely, I have
never pondered on the past or the future.
My father never gave
me anything. I too will do my bit for my family but one has to work
hard to hold it, be it a property, name or a legacy.
On his life partner: She is a
very straightforward and an open person. We share the same
interests - be it food or books. It is important to connect with a
But again it
doesn't mean there are no rough patches in this journey. Love just
happens. It is not necessary it should click. For me it is very
important to fall in love with the person every day. Every morning
I should see a new facet of her personality being unfolded. It was
not love at first sight. We got to know each other gradually.
Renu stood by me when
I was completely down. I fell in love with her. She has supported me
on every aspect, gave me confidence. I see in her a companion for
I've never known a
woman's mind before. What I know about women is limited to my sisters.
We do have our share of disagreements but then it is she who takes
most of my nonsense.
It is wrong when
people say she interferes with my work. A lot of people here in this
industry are very opinionated and prejudiced.
At one point of time
they wanted to steer my life too.
On his relationship with god: I've
always believed in god. As I grew up, there were many questions on my
mind. I traveled, met gurus, was into meditation, reiki, pranic
healing, Art of Living, but I never found the answers. But suddenly
one day I felt I needn't search any more I now believe in living life
to the best of my ability and to the fullest.
Like a dream PAWAN KALYAN has
always been the delight of page 3, be it his relationship with the
press or with his women. The masquerade of the make-believe world,
constant pressure of the spotlight, an unhappy marriage - he is been
through it all like any normal person despite being vastly underrated
by his detractors. And now, after many years of keeping things under
wraps, the actor has defied conventions and stood by Renu Desai, his
lady love. On the personal front, Akki, their bundle of joy has given
them glorious and rewarding moments in life.
Courtesy : The Hindu